thanks for giving me this.

banyak benda jadi tapi tak tau macam mana nak cerita. mostly its about friends. tatau la layak dipanggil friends ke tak.first, sebab buat-buat tak nampak bila selisih. untuk apa pon? second, cerita all our problems to outsiders. yang ni pon i tak faham. dah la cerita kat orang yang you cakap you tak suka. oh please. u pissed me. third, mengelak bila jumpa. kenapa nak avoid? takut? kenapa pon?

tau tak orang yang kawan dengan i dah lebih 5TAHUN pon tak penah buat macam ni. you are just plain hypocrite.

congrats la sebab dapat post tu. at first i'm  truly happy for you tapi sekarang dah meluat menyampah. ye i tak nak bertembung dengan korang. bukan sebab jealous bukan sebab dengki. tapi i tak boleh nak face korang without perasaan menyampah tu. you totally changed after dapat that post. mesti nak cakap i sedih sebab tak dapat. well you are totally wrong! i sikit pon tak kisah sebab from the beginning bukan i yang nak hantar form tu. orang yang paksa. you were the one that changed. A LOT! 

yang menolong tu pon, after diorang janji nak serap dalam biro u just left the person you called best friend alone? tak kesian ke kat dia. pegi mana-mana sekarang sum sorang. u pulak berkepit dengan orang yang ada post. tak payah nak buat-buat innocent. im sick of it. sedar la. jangan jadi terhegeh-hegeh. i seriously tak sangka you're that kind of person.

sumpah aku kecewa dengan korang. hah silly me sebab percaya sangat kan. yea serve me right. one more thing i wanna say. kalau nak kawan, kawan la betul-betul. kalau tak datang jumpa and selesaikan. kalau u nak cakap 'i dont wanna be friend with you' pon i terima. ramai lagi yang nak jadi kawan i. tak bagi kesan sikit pon kalau kita tak kawan. i nak benda ni selesai. im tired of drama. you know where to find me.

nuff said,

buhbye.

oh i really miss 7JIWAS a lot!

best night ever

i sorry, its just another post.
theres a lot of unwanted things happen this week. load of tears and complaining, i lost my composure last night as i burst into tears while talking to mama. haha malu. yesterday night while in doing chemistry assignment -ehem, saja nak bagitau- su smsed me.

su;

jom outing esok.

me; 

naa tanak la banyak keja. 

su;

alaa aku pon banyak. jom laa teman aku

me; 

hmm nanti ada 5 orang. mesti ada  person will be left out.x best la nanti.

-then, she called-

she asked why and keep pujuk i so that i agree to the plan. and yea i agreed. then she asked me to go to the dataran. i pon turun la. sembang-sembang, nangis-nangis, gelak-gelak, then ternampak zamir. he once promised me that he'll play the guitar for me. last night, he really did as he promised. dengan syarat i nyanyi. i was like okay set. he played im yours. it is really awesome. and theres a lot of people there. kitorang nyanyi sampai pak guard tu hon x berenti suruh naik bilik haha. funnayy.

korang, jom la gether macam semalam lagi. it is fun and just plain awesome. 

zamir, thanks for playing, youve lighten my mood without knowing it. jom buat lagi ;)

so thats it.

ciao peeps.

yeay!! miow miow is safe from the injury! / second outing

this is the second episode of the cat's story. the first part is here. go read it first okay.
as usual, i went out for breakfast this morning and i heard the kitten. yea. the one yang kena langgar tu. i am 100% sure it is the same kitten. as i passed there it just looked at me. and i said 'tunggu kejap ea. nak g makan.' haha gila cakap dengan kucing. so after having my breakfast, i went back to the cat and guess what, it is still there! alhamdulillah, it is safe and sound. i took it in my arms and start walking towards the road but it keeps jump out of my arms. when i called, it came near me but never wanted to go near the road. then and there i knew the kitten is having a trauma from the crash. kesian dia. kalau tak mesti dah boleh pegi main-main dengan other kitten kan.

i really wanna take it into my care. but i cant just simply force it to go with me. well some other time when mama come, ill definitely bring it back.

end of the story.

now, the second part. me, su, noni, asma, and nabila went out for our second outing. destination; sunway carnival. from 1 to 6pm. penat sangat. we go round and round the mall. kaki sakit wehh. at the end we got what we want. what happen between the time interval is best be left unsaid cuz theres tons of geram. tapi banyak lagi yang gembira. susah nak cerita. pening kan. i pon pening jugak. tak faham pon dok tulis apa ni. haha.

dah la cut the crap. back to assignment. (tension)

nuff said,

ciao bella.

oh oh HAPPY PAPA'S DAY PAPA! I LOVE YOU. I REALLY DO! MUAH!

you are just plain ignorant

greetings peeps,
theres still people who doesnt consider others feelings. no matter how educated they are. by educated i measure it from how many a's they got from their SPM exam. really you cannot imagine how many people got straight a's and got a place in matrix. oh whats my main point again? oh yea in considerate people. so theres a group of boys sitting in a row behind me and my friend during physics lecture. theyre so very noisy laughing, talking, laughing again. it really drove me crazyy. ye la i da la tak faham apa yang cikgu tu cakap. then i have to paksa telinga ni dengar over that loud voices. apparently, they also didnt understand what the H the teacher was talking about. they kept asking, 'huh, why is it like that?' 'cikgu ni tak betul kot' ish asal la korang ni cacat sangat, da bising mana nak dengar cikgu cakap ap. theyre just so rude. IM TRYING TO CONCENTRATE HERE' quiz miggu depan pon tak sedar diri lagi. dah la freshie, huh.

after like 20min in agony of being patient with them, one of my friend suddenly confront him.

M:

ehem,dah pandai sangat ke? 

B:

haa pandai jugak la. (grinning like a dumbell)

M:

ouh kitorang ni tak pandai lagi so senyap sikit ye. (sarcastically)

B:

aaa okay.(but still laughing loudly)

really, he and his friends actually laughed after being confronted. ill be very embarrassed if im in their shoes. at the time, i really felt like throtting him. rugi tak tengok his stupid face. haish kalau tak bole mark dia. and ill definitely wont sit near them after this.

to you, please change your attitude or youll get no where.mark my words.

p/s : i got a chance of winning 200 ringgit but i blew it by panicking and excidentally hung up my phone. stupid me. *sigh* okay get over it! theres always another chance.

pray for me,

nuff said,

chiao bella.

friends,

kata kawan tapi kenapa :

cepat percaya bila orang spread stories pasal kita?

tak percaya bila kita tell the truth

tak da trust langsung

tell our problems to other peoples?

kenapa nak buruk kan kita kat orang lain?

etc etc.

there too much to list and i dont want to make this entry long just with my why's and kenapa. okay entry ni based on my life at this hellish place called matrix. this is also a life performance stage with me and my fellow friends as the actor.

to you, be strong, we know the story, well i think we do. we'll support you come hell or high water.

nuff said,

ciao.

a reply for you,

ive just read your blog SASYA ANUWAR. and yea i stand here feeling very greatful. i could not thank you enough for wishing. and im loving your obsession on being the first one to wish everyone birthday haha. yea you always win. tahniah *clap*

Well actually I feel it's kinda hard for me to explain when people ask me 'dari mana?' thang. It's not that m ashamed to say that m from Langkawi, Kedah. But then people will be like apasal tak cakap Kedah pon? But then, when I tell them that m from Selangor they'll be like 'sekolah mana? Macam mana boleh sekolah kat Alor Setar?' Then i'll end up explaining that I was born in Selangor bla bla bla. Like seriously m getting tired with this fucking damn thing cuz i've been explaining it since I was in primary school. I'm not exageratting, no.
(took it from sasya anuwar blog)

haha im having the same problem as well. whenever people ask me 'asal mana' i'll say 'emm rumah ke tempat lahir' sebab sekarang da keliru asal tu refer to what. when they ask me 'cuti ni balik mana?' sometimes i'll say perak. theyll ask 'perak tu rumah spa pulak? the same question will be ask when i say im going back to seremban. haish. susah kan. i understand your tiredness la asya. cuz i too feel the same.

nuff said,

ciao chikas.

definately not veterinar

so i went for breakfast infront of kmpp early this morning. for a moment things going on smoothly. i enjoyed my roti boom and teh ais. it is so very delicious. so me and asma ate our food, pay it and head back to kmpp. on our way back, theres one little cute kitten suddenly jump out of no where and started to 'geser-geser' at my leg. i was like 'awww it is so cute' and it is. really. with fluffy tail. i really feel like taking it back with me. i even say that to asma. tapi asma cakap nak simpan kat mana? after giving it a thought, i agreed with asma and TRIED to leave it there, but it keep following me. it wanted to play. i kneel there and strke it for a moment. then i talked to it. 'jangan la ikut nanti tatau jalan balik.' it looked at me as if it understand me. the kitten went the other way and i stood up. at the same time asma said 'sara, ada motor tu. tepi sikit' then suddenly the kitten came back and it was at the same time the motorcycle pass there. bole agak la apa jadi kan? at that time i was like  'eh eh ada kucing tu' but the person riding the motorcycle ignored it and jalan terus je. he actually langgar kucing tu! the kitten mengiau kuat-kuat la sakit kan. kucing tu terus bangun pastu lari arah dia mula-mula datang tu. it broke one of its legs. i dah tatau nak buat apa. i just looked at it and asma. i tanya asma 'kita nak buat apa ni?' i felt so really useless at that time.

i called mama.

me ;

 helo ma, ma buat apa?

mama ; 

tak buat apa pon baru sampai kl.

me ;

 ouh. maaa,(started crying)

mama ;

 kenapa ni along?

me ;

 tadi ada kucing kena langgar. kenapa orang yang bawak motor tu nak langgar dia ma? dia comel sangat.kenapa dia tak elak kucing tu ma?

mama ;

 dia tak perasan kot along ada kat situ ke masa tu?

me ; 

haah along g makan ngan asma kat lua. orang tu nampak la kucing tu ma sebab kitorang pon baru je bangun dari situ. kucing tu mesti sakit kan ma? kaki dia patah kot sebab dia tak boleh jalan betul-betul tadi. kesian dia. kalau dia mati mesti tak payah rasa sakit tu.

mama ; 

along jangan la nangis. mama tau along kesian kan kucing tu.

me ;

 along sedih sebab kucing tu datang kat along. dia kena langgar sebab datang main kat along. ma, along rasa macam tak guna sangat sebab tak boleh buat apa-apa untuk tolong kucing tu.

mama ;

tak pe mesti allah tolong kucing tu. orang tu tak berenti tolong ke?

me ; 

tak pon bodah la orang tu ma. dia tak tengok langsung kucing tu. dia pandang belakang just to see if anything wrong with his stupid motorcycle.

mama ;

tak pe la along kena kuat. kan nak jadi doc. tak bole la nanges.

me ; 

oke mama, kucing tu akan oke kan ma?

mama ; 

it sure will sayang. da la dont worry.

-conversation end-

lepas tu asma ajak naik basikal. untuk tenang kan my mind la konon nye. thanks anyway asma. ily. then pergi kesis and i saw today's paper and guess what? ada orang mati sebab cuba elak bangkai KUCING. jalan lagi nak balik bilik, and i saw a dead CAT. kenapa semua pon ada kaitan dengan kucing hari ni? i really dont have the answer. i cried and my eyes all bengkak already.

ya-Allah lindungi lah haiwan ini . amin.

nuff said.

ciao y'all

p/s; cute kitty, please take care of yourself. dont die. i love you and im sorry i cant do anything to help.

thank you!

its been 5 days since my birthday. yea its on 31 MAY if you are counting. so first thing is,

MAMA
i wanna thank my mother for carrying me in her belly for 9 month, and endure all the pain while giving me birth. I LOVE YOU MA!

PAPA
thank you pa for being there when i need you morally or financially. haha. I LOVE YOU PA!

ASYA, IEQAH, ADIK
okay, thanks for being a brat. u make my life colourful by just being yourself. I LOVE YOU GUYS!

FRIENDS
this one is specially directed to 7JIWAS! thank for being there when I'm in need and thanks for being such a great and awesome friend. ill cherish it till the day i die.

ASMA, SU, NABILA, NONI, EMA, AIN, FATIHAH, FARHANA
thank you for the surprise birthday celebration. i really appreciate it. you guys were there when i thought no one would bother with my birthday. even kita kawan baru setahun. it feels like we've known each other for so long. korang selalu keep me entertained. so thank you so very much.

to whoever that i didn't mention here, i really appreciate your wishes and prayer for me. you will always be remembered.

to all that ive mention, im really touched that you guys 'berlumba' to be the first one wishing me. i really am.

thats all for now,

ciao chikas.